We really have to be more careful what we're singing. I've been singing words like: "My dreams, my fears, my family, my career, take it away God." And, "All that I hide, could You bring it to life? Could You open my eyes and show me?" I bought Eye On It a few days ago, and while I'm loving the music, yesterday I finally realized the depth of the lyrics I was singing.
Another song I've been listening to has 1 line that grips me every time I hear it: "I've walked by this fire so many times, but now I'm coming in." How many times in my life have I said "no" to God? How many times have I been too afraid to really let Him in? How many things have I missed out on because I couldn't give Him freedom to move and work on me?
Too many times. And for way too long. If I was God, I would have given up on me a long time ago. In fact, since God is all-knowing, I probably wouldn't even have bothered with me in the first place! But thanks be to God that He is not like me. He's not like us! He can see the end from before the beginning. He not only sees all of our past, but He sees us seated in Heaven with Jesus right now. Ephesians 2: 4 - 7 says:
4 But God is so rich in mercy, and he loved us so much, 5 that even though we were dead because of our sins, he gave us life when he raised Christ from the dead. (It is only by God’s grace that you have been saved!) 6 For he raised us from the dead along with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ Jesus. 7 So God can point to us in all future ages as examples of the incredible wealth of his grace and kindness toward us, as shown in all he has done for us who are united with Christ Jesus. (NLT)
This is great news! It means that even though we are physically here on Earth, battling with sin and our enemy, we are spiritually seated with Jesus. Jesus is seated because He is finished. He is done. He overcame sin, death and the grave. When God looks at us, seated with Jesus, He sees us as finished. Done. We have overcome, because we have died and risen with Christ.
Which is at least one of the reasons that He doesn't give up on us - even while we are holding onto what we think is "life" so tightly.
I don't know why I have always been so afraid to embrace the fire of God. But no matter how much fear I have, there is always something that draws me, urges me to surrender to Him. My spirit man really wants to give everything over, but my flesh has been putting up the fight of the century for a long, long, long time.
Although, when I think about it logically, (yes, it is possible for my brain to handle some logic!) it only makes sense to surrender to God. After all, when He created us, He put certain things and characteristics and gifts and dreams inside us on purpose. He gave them to us for our enjoyment, His pleasure and to be a part of His plan for the world. The only things He wants to take away from us would have to be the bad stuff - the stuff that makes us miserable. We always think if we really give everything to God, He is going to snatch our lives away from us. "I can't surrender my family to God! He'll take them away from me!" Apparently we forget that God is sovereign, and He can take whatever He wants anyways, regardless if we are holding onto it or not!
But He wants us to release the good and the bad into His hands - not so He can take it away, but so we can live freely. I heard someone once talk about the concept of living with open hands. Open hands are not holding onto anything - whether good or bad. Open hands are free to receive, and free to let go. This has stuck with me for years now, and I can't erase it from my memory - because it is truth!
This is how He meant for us to live, and it's the only way to really be free. Lord, help us to live with open hands, in complete surrender to You. Help us to trust in Your love for us and live with complete confidence that You really do only want the best for us. We can trust You with our lives, our families, our careers and our futures!